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  • KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml
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    dysphoria

    My dysphoria is so bad. It might be the worst dysphoria I’ve ever had. I want FFS so bad. Maybe I should do FFS first instead of an orchiectomy. But the waiting lists are so long and I’m not hopeful it will happen soon.

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      I’ve thought that if where I lived offered FFS or SRS and they only cover one, I might have picked FFS to be honest.

      As it is, SRS is covered so that’s what Im getting. Im trying to save for FFS but its like… with that much money in the back I could also buy a house geez.

    • EllenKelly [comrade/them]@hexbear.netM
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      things that help me with dysphoria

      This felts really corny when i first tired it but doing some positive afformations in the mirror really helped me with this, little notes that say something like ‘this is what a woman looks like’, ‘you are beautiful’ etc, I’ve got an old crimethink ‘beauty must be what we define it as, or else it is our enemy’ poster too

      i generally just avoid looking in the mirror tho tbh

      i dont know how long youve been out to yourself for, but with time things like ffs and srs have become a lot less important to me, but it was a lot of mental work

      once when i told my grandmother how depressed i was feeling she told me, whenever she’s feeling really down she hops in the shower, puts on some nice clothes and does her make up (oddly affirming because she doesnt really get im trans), but self care really helps

      also helpful to remember the way you see yourself is not how other people see you

      be kind to yourself