On the one hand I somewhat hate my old name and getting referred to as male, but on the other hand I would actually have to correct others to use my preferred name/pronouns.
Edit: Its not that im uncomfortable with she/her or that I have to fear of people having a negative reaction over it, but instead that I simply do not like to correct people so I do not “fulfill” the st ereotype of “the annoying trans person that constantly annoys you about pronouns”. Is it completely irrational to think like that (especially since all of the people I interact with are very accepting)? Yes! Do I still feel that way? Also yes!
It’s typically easy to tell whether a person is being forgetful or hateful.
The worst one I do is my sister’s NB spouse. I knew them for decades before they realized they were NB and let us know, and I screw it up with them all the time. It’s not because I don’t support them. It’s because I don’t see anything different about them. They’re still family and they make my sister and their son happy.
We still nerd out over the same stuff and and our relationship hasn’t really changed at all. So I slip and refer to them as “him.” I think sometimes that my love for them and who they’ve always been has in a way blinded me to the outward change.