I aim to be more human. I aim to be less apathetic as a human. Apathy grows, like a tree, and I aim to prune my own.

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Cake day: June 23rd, 2023

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  • Personally, if this account ends up federated with grad, I’ll abandon it. I’ve been here since the Reddit API migration 2 years ago, when grad was originally defederated, but I’ll drop this shit in half a heartbeat. I have other options. Y’all can do what you like.

    No thanks for me though. I also don’t want shit to do with hex or .ml. Those are harder to find instances defederated. But also worth having nothing to do with, I’ve found. For every serious anarchist or communist you might actually want to talk to, it seems you have 4 “for real bro” shitposters ruining it.

    I’m actively looking for places I don’t have to interact with that level of toxicity. If dbzer0 isn’t it anymore, I’ll move on.

    If I want to see what nonsense they have to say I can create an account on their dumb servers. I don’t want to know what assholes think, though, when they could -just as easily- go somewhere else to interact if they want to be heard.



  • Since nobody else seems inclined to share the deep darks of their life, I will.

    Due to a childhood of neglect, I tend to ruin baby animals left in my care. Not because I want to, but because I’m not nurturing at all. Not even a slight tiny bit. I keep them alive and unharmed just fine, that I can do. But that’s about all I’ve got.

    I’ve had a few cats that I’ve acquired as kittens and by the time they hit adulthood they hate everything. The first time I didn’t realize it was me, and I had a cranky bitch who hated everyone and everything but me… for 16 years… after the last time I know it must be me. Because cats from the same litter went to my partner and theirs are super nice and friendly, and mine… one gets so upset seeing other strange cats that she misplaces her aggression and goes after her sister until her sister pees herself running away. It fucking sucks, and I wish I was better for them.

    The dog I got as a puppy was poorly socialized, as well, but I wasn’t able to keep her past the first year (pitbull in an apartment, but she was just friendly as hell, not mean or aggressive)

    My quail were about ready to see me as mama, same with the chickens, even nestling in my hands to fall asleep, and now they don’t like me… (that one is probably a reach-down problem, they like me a lot better when I reach in at them instead of down from above, but still)

    So except where necessary, like farm animals, I avoid getting babies. I’m sterile for this reason as well. I don’t want to pass on my fucked up neglected childhood, even to animals.







  • Aww I’m super glad to hear it improved your day, and you’ll be able to find it again in the future!

    I get the same reaction to it, I think it’s the use of flat melancholic notes scattered throughout, such as in the refrain “I’d like to make myself believe, that planet earth turns slowly”. For me anyway. I love that sort of upbeat but sorrowful sort of thing. It gives me intense frisson (aka aesthetic shiver, aka that chill down your spine when something hits just right).

    The sound of silence covered by Pentatonix also gives me mad frisson every time I hear it. And for the same reason I think.








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    Speaking of succubi, I really liked how that was handled in the book “if I pay thee not in gold”, which isn’t the best pro-feminist work, despite being actually written by a woman and centering around a matriarchal society, or even book, by far, but does include the whole idea that

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    a succubus, upon fucking a woman as a man, turns into a woman the following morning, and when turned into a woman, sex with a man would return the male form.

    It was a real eye opener for my teen self, to see not only gender fluidity, but a happy non-monogamous relationship resulting.

    I’m ace/aro so the sexy nature is lost on me but the story itself is good. tho… very superficial… they could have done so much more with the way that universe works; it’s genuinely a fascinating concept that I’d love to see explored in more depth.

    Still it’s not a long read and worth the effort :)