Des [she/her, they/them]

Des or Desi

muscle mommy sicko-power sleepy eepy girl. also hexbear’s weird aunt

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Cake day: July 26th, 2020

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  • he’ll never lose his true fanbase, the actual MAGA types, no. some might disengage and get lazy about electoralism. but yeah the Rogan libertarians will probably split: some will disengage, some go back to reason.com libertarianism to fret, and some remember their stint as Bernie bros but just like the Rogan sphere podcaster, see Mamdani as the new model of politically giving a shit.

    i mean he’s got fit, he’s effortlessly masculine, has a classically beautiful wife, more radical then Bernie (for now…), and the State (and by extension, the Elites) are all united against him. dems hate him, which makes him anti-woke.

    one thing I agree with Sam Seder on is that when these guys say “woke” they mean “weak”.

    it will be the subset that are the least racist, most amenable to pro-Palestine/anti-Zionism, and disillusioned with capitalism. it will be those mythical “white men” the dems want but they don’t really want


  • a combo of horny stuff and dysphoria. let's call it hornphoria.

    So I used to be into “forced feminization” as both a kink and erotica. It was basically all there was to find during the dark ages of extremely fragmented and almost non-existent online trans community. Most of it never sat right with me, because the stories tended to be about degradation and I wanted empowerment. So I wrote some of my own eventually. Since I have many, many kinks beside that I really feel it set back my own realization of being transfemme. Like, thought it was purely a kink (my gender identity) which was made worse by my gender dysphoria not hitting until puberty.

    Now obviously it’s diversified I suppose into spheres that include empowerment, or being helped by experienced transwomen (in a dommy way!), as well as the old school degradation type stuff. Not entirely sure, I only occasionally poke around. So I don’t know whether that set me back like 10 years or was helpful, or it was purely a matter of being an elder millennial that missed the boat. Plenty of RL cis women partners that were into it, which at least gave me some validation but really twisted things up and left me unsure.

    So yeah, still a kink, maybe it’s because i’m a butch transfemme and like the idea of doing it to all genders, more of consensual “forced” make-over/dress-up or transform someone into an aesthetic that is alien to them. I think that’s more what I’m into. Still hard to square this, maybe I should just consider it a learning experience and be grateful I was able to explore with partners even if it was a “set back”.

    I’m happy to hear anyone else’s experience with this or if it was similar. Millennials and above or Z.




  • omg dude can’t just say “yeah he was a business associate, so were a bunch of people” and then just get indignant about being acused of being a pedo

    like that’s it. his fanbase would just melt back into the default mode

    but instead he’s alienating his most frothing, loyal, conspiracy brained supporters by just telling them they are all fools and suckers. fools and suckers for either believing him or being “tricked” by the dems (which by extension means Trump and co were tricked for like almost a decade)

    you’ve demolished all the bridges donny boy. closed the paths out. sure you’ll wiggle out of whatever but when you have Rogan acolytes calling the DSA the only true america first party you might have done fucked up


  • rule the waves fan

    uhh no but i may have heard of it looks it up omg it’s one of those extra crunchy warsims. and you can design ships!? maybe i will be soon catgirl-heart

    and yeah the HOI4 design is pretty abstract. and at this point I have a pretty fixed design procedure that unfortunately does take advantage of some meta stuff (like having bare bones escort destroyers, cruisers that are basically frames, etc)

    there was an arcade style warship game called Naval Ops 2 i used to love a long time ago because of the ship design (which went from WW2 to railgun future). and before that, when I was much younger, PTO (Pacific Theatre of Operations) that was even more abstract then HOI4 but started my obsession with crunchy number grand strategy. so yeah I am a naval nerd. my WW2 vet grandfather did navy and fed my obsessions

    now i’m going to look at this game you mentioned and it’s going to be like when Attila total war opens when you fight a battle in CK4 as your character, the mod. which worked really well.

    so i’m going to be like “can that be done with this” lol.

    stories system actually does sound pretty interesting, hope they succeed too!

    i would totally give any spare time I could to that project if I had any modern coding skills or experience with paradox modding. like if they just needed a gal to copy/paste stuff endlessly.

    but i don’t want to embarrass myself and i am very patient with ongoing projects.
    catgirl-flop


  • I suppose my write-up was more a lament that the Vic3 to HOI4 converter is still very, very barebones and I wish I could help with it.

    The mod team is making a “stories system” that I think takes the various emergent events that occur in your Vic3 game and uses them to build focus trees and thus a narrative reason for the situation that starts in 1936.

    Sounds incredibly ambitious and I really hope they pull it off and people have interest in it.

    The only major change i would make to Vic3 combat is a focus on naval warfare. Land warfare was mostly a grindfest during most of the period, but naval warfare was where all the advanced tech, innovation, and rapid development occured. Going from sail ship to ironclad to WW1 is way too simplistic.

    look at a battleship from the 1880s and how advanced it is and remember this is when cowboys are riding horses in the wild west still.

    But I’m also a weirdo that really likes HOI4’s current naval system, mostly because it abstracts the whole “scout, detect, harass, maneuver, concentrate, engage, pursue” style of naval combat before satellites and guided missiles. So yeah I love division, ship, and vehicle design from HOI4 I try to ignore “min max” and just do what I think would make sense. Ship design would be fun in Vic3 but everyone would hate it. But I want my pre-dreadnoughts with 6 different gun calibers, casemates, and brass decorations dueling with converted fishing trawler torpedo and gun boats.






  • i think the lines are blurring. cognitive dissonance dominates the corporate world, especially at the higher levels. you openly state/believe one thing, internally another contradictory thing.

    eventually though the human mind can’t handle it and you either somewhat disassociate those two sides of yourself or leave one at work and one at home. but modern tech won’t allow this. you have to be on 24/7. so you can’t compartmentalize anymore.

    so you may have doubts but still operate as a true believer, because true believer = paycheck/stock options/wealth/power. it becomes one and the same as the Grift.

    you forget you are playing a role and doing an act and i guess just go full method acting. fully immersed, LARPing, whatever to get ahead.

    certainly feels that’s happening to the silicon valley types and by extension the ruling class.


  • that show would have basically been what I expected the first Stargate movie to have been when I was a kid:

    but only if it was modern military vs arcane magically enhanced fantasy army with monsters. like full power equivalence just each fighting using wildly divergent methodology

    dragons fighting fighter jets. battle tanks vs ogres. sorcerers dueling with drones. rifles vs magically animated golem troops. that kind of stuff

    not just “civ 4 modern armor unit vs. roman legion, with waifus!”

    so basically not written by a fascist.



  • people @ work: “everybody’s sick!” “some kind of virus going around” “people keep calling out”

    me: “you know covid is still around right”

    it’s weird how that flips a switch and triggers a brief flashback followed by return to previous brainstate

    and i work in a frontline job where people we know died from it during the first waves. so maybe there’s just an extra layer of trauma there