OgdenTO [he/him]

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Cake day: August 11th, 2020

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  • I’m older than you. Was married, am currently separated. I have amazing kids who I live with. I organize in real life. I have lots of really good friends in real life who share my interests and who I see often. I play online games with my friends as well. And I also completely understand the loneliness you’re feeling.

    I miss having a romantic partner. It’s been many years since I’ve been hugged or hugged someone who wanted to be around me in a romantic way. I miss smelling people too. I miss someone wanting me to touch them. In fact I can barely remember what it’s like. I have been feeling very lonely lately, and it’s not because I don’t have friends or family. Honestly I think there is something up with society and the pressures that are ingrained into the current capitalist system that tie any kind of loneliness to a sense of failure and to something will never change. And I also wonder if online interactions make it worse. I feel my loneliest right after I interact with my friends online.

    But you know what this is a manufactured thing, the idea that how things will be permanent. Things change. Things change all the time and can do so quickly! The present and future are all that matter. You could meet someone tomorrow who falls in love with you, and it would feel like they’ve always been there. Don’t dwell on the time in the past, because when something changes in the future, the past won’t even matter anymore.

    You deserve to find someone and be loved. And I believe that you will, and it could be anytime.


  • That sucks that you’re feeling down and alone. But it’s really inspiring to see that you’re going to protests! I think that will help a lot with hanging out with like-minded individuals! There’s probably not mutual aid organizations in your village, but I’ve had some luck with a local church (I’m not religious, but they do fantastic mutual aid events for inhouse people in my region). If there are protests, maybe figure out who’s running them and see if you can volunteer to help organize? Sorry I’m not trying to solve this for you because I know you were venting, but I had some ideas for you to think about.

    As for your friend, feeling shitty about yourself can cause a lot of projection onto other people. I don’t know your situation fully, but if they haven’t said anything negative about you hanging out, it’s most likely your own insecurities being seen through them. Give them the benefit of the doubt and have a good time when you’re with them, or at least try. And remember, there’s nothing wrong with being a quiet person. Hang out, participate, and not talk a lot? Perfectly fine. Also, nobody feels normal, at least I don’t.

    I hope you find some good social circles soon.

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