I know the emotional spiral you are dealing with. I am struggling to not let myself fall into that pattern of behavior any more. I believe in you. You made a simple honest mistake. You aren’t a monster and you don’t have a major moral failing. You are a perfectly reasonable human and made a perfectly reasonable human mistake.

Step one: breath. Take long slow deliberate breathes. Acknowledge you are in an emotionally elevated state and this will make thinking clearly difficult if not possible. I find focusing only on the breathing until I feel like maybe you want a nap is a clear indicator I have done enough. lol.

Step two: Acknowledge what happened objectively without assigning blame. A scheduling mistake was made. This is a detail that is important and easy to get wrong. You are neither the first or the last person to make the same error. You haven’t harmed anyone. At worst some people will be disappointed, yourself included.

Step three: What can be done? Can you adjust reservationa to attend the event? If attending the original event is not possible, can you pivot to doing other things for the reserved times? If not, what can be done to get refunds or sell (at cost) your tickets to other people?

Yeah, he seemed to have a very reasonable objection. Better to give it more time to cook than move forward with a rush job.

Also it’s not as RAM limited because it uses system memory which can be upgraded.

I don’t really see it as randomness. More of a craving for novelty and a constant stream of consciousness. I was talking with another another ADHD person today and it might seem random, but every change in the conversation had a logical connection to the things before it. We both were content to flow with the conversation is it naturally moved between topics.

Satisfactory with some friends. We just unlocked trains.

Pretty sure my friend got one of those second hand for lan parties he hosted in highschool. That was was more than 20 years ago.

I think there are 3D printing services that make to order.

I assume that is about hitting duplicate items. If there are 100 people selling the EXACT same dragon, hit them all and sort out the details later.

Any reason you need to encrypt the host OS information? I would assume anything interesting would be in the VM and you could probably have the VM encrypt it’s own storage.

Given historical evidence of my writing that is not a sure thing.

Part of me is bothered by those explanations, but if I had to explain GitHub to a tech illiterate grandparent with that much screen space I don’t know if I would do much better.

To make sure there is not a misunderstanding, the wattage of a PSU is not how much power it will draw. The wattage is how much is can supply. So if you have a 1000w PSU, but all your components draw 200w of power it will use about 200w of power.

Additionally, if you plan to get a lot of HDDs in the future, do some research on power rails. Some PSUs are designed to only be able to supply a small amount of power to things like HDDs because most people only have 1 or 2.

Yeah. All people will take for granted the things that come easily to them.

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My experience is pretty good as the team has the general mindset of, “Avoid waisting other people’s time, get stuff done, and do quality work. If you are doing that we don’t care what your process is.”

A lot of movement is going to draw people’s attention. It’s just baked into humans. If you need to do movement that is going to be in people’s line of sight while they work, just go for a walk.

You will feel watched and judged. But the reality is they have their own work and problems to worry about. Generally if your not interfering with them doing their own thing, they don’t care.

People being OK with you doing off task things like reading would be like an earned privilege if allowed at all. You are new and will need to prove that you can deliver. If you earn a reputation for consistent, quality, on time work you manager will be more open to you managing your own schedule.

Volume control is important. Most conversations seem to happen at the level between normal conversation and whispering. This generally means conversations are not disruptive to people nearby. But always assume everyone around you can hear everything you say and choose topics/words accordingly.

I didn’t share my ADHD with my manager until I was well established in my role and trusted that wanted to help me succeed. I’m not saying that is the correct choice, just what I did. Before that we did have many conversations about how I can work most effectively finding the balance of what I need and what the team needs.

As for accomodations, I would get explicit permission to were noise blocking headphones and a desk that doesn’t face an area with a lot of traffic. People moving in your line of sight all day is super distracting.

Yeah, you can’t outrun your fork.

Have a calorie tracking app and track everything. You will start to learn how somethings are more calorie dense than others. Don’t have junk food. You will want to snack. Have veggies like carrots or fresh fruit on hand. Drink water first. So many times I “feel” hungry but I am actually thirsty. Load up on broccoli. If you over eat, then have lots of broccoli. It’s filling and not calorie dense. When possible plan your meals ahead of time. It’s brutally hard to make the better diet choice when your hungry. It’s easier to just follow through with a decision you already made.

They aren’t a hero. They are a company attempting to generate a profit by selling a product. This is likely to be helpful to the consumers, but they aren’t making a sacrifice for our benefit.

That makes sense. I had a consistent fear that I would graduate, get a job, and not know what I was doing at all. So it pushed me to understand materials beyond what the class required.

Haha, that is some fantastic imposter syndrome right there. “People thought I had answers for some unknown reason. So they came to me for answers and I kept providing the with correct answers. Weird.”